They change their appearance. They let their friends take them away for a weekend to laugh, cry, and tell them they're strong enough, great enough, brave enough to take on the world again. They take deep breaths, say long prayers, slap that smile on their face and carry on!
Well, I've done all these things.
Chopped my hair and blonded myself... Check
Spent a weekend with my amazing college girlfriends, Joy and AubRee.... Check
Spa and sauna hopping
Couldn't be complete without a Cafe Rio and In N Out trip !
And now able to slap a smile on and carry on... Check.
It's hard to feel judged by everyone around you. But it's neat to see who really loves you and supports you in the end. And sometimes you just have to let go of those who don't.I love this quote I saw on Pinterest:
Thank you to all those who have sent me even just a little kind note to let me know you care. I feel so blessed to have so many wonderful people around me.
Today is Mother's Day and it's been so wonderful to reflect on my personal journey through life and motherhood so far. Sometimes it felt like I was holding on by my fingernails; the late night feedings, the crying and spitting up that never ended with Crew (or "Crucifer" as we tended to call him back then..), the mastitis, the feeling so exhausted and stretched thin that I would give ANYTHING for one night of interrupted sleep in a hotel far away from anyone :)
But then I realize how all those things have shaped me into a better person, more patient, less selfish, more understanding, more appreciative. And I get to experience amazing love from two little boys who make me feel like the most special person in the world. Seriously. Right now the hardest part is being a good listener, having patience, taking care of their daily needs. But in just a few years its going to be a different stress. Hoping they are making good friends, staying out of trouble with girls, wondering if they're really where they say they are, praying that I'm doing enough at home to strengthen them and give them a foundation and understanding of the Atonement. Because let's be honest. The world is a different place than when we grew up. My kids are probably gonna make some bad choices in their lives. Most of us have. But I trust that if they've been taught true principles, understand the Atonement, and recognize the feelings of the Spirit, they will have enough to return to Christ and His path for them. Motherhood is truly an amazing journey (I hate using that word because it makes me think of The Bachelor). It's something that will continue to push me, shape me, bend me into who the Lord wants me to be. And that is why I'm grateful for it all.
Happy Mother's Day to everyone. You really do a great work for this world. You are significant.
And now I'm off to bed where I'll likely be woken up at least once to replace a blanket or clean a pee soaked bed :p
2 comments:
I hope your excited for another girls trip!! Because I am thrilled :)
Motherhood is for sure a journey as is life. The journey inward :) Goodluck Holly. I hope and pray for you, your boys and Phil the best.
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